Ago Solvo Vel Intereo Ferreus

I just got back from watching the new Die Hard movie and all I have to say about it is "WOW".

Now keep in mind that just because a movie has an obscene amount of pyrotechnics and crude humor that I am so easily amused, your wrong... In fact, I'm not a real big fan of action. I hate action movies. So ignorant and pointless they are.

Seems lately like the older actors are trying to make one last comeback before being absolutely satisfied with their career thus far i.e. Stallone with Rocky and Ah-Nold with Terminator. As I'm sure your aware of, Both failed miserably. On the other hand, Bruce can still kick the ass like no other. Yeah, He is still a cocky badass.

Watch it... You won't be disappointed.

Fundo Absentis, Novus Chapter

First off, Sorry for the extended absence. I took some time off for myself... You know, one can't love another unless he learns to love and make time for himself.



Anyway, allow us to continue. Although, I kinda jumped the gun with the last post. Let me fill you in on the events that took place since my absence.


I've decided against sharing the whole prison experience with you all... for now. (April, 13th post)

Instead I would to avert your attention to today's new topic,

The extramarital affair.

Now, I've looked everywhere online trying to find an answer as to why it happens...
There is no single answer,
one does not exist.

Those of us who have had an affair, please, enlighten us with YOUR explanation.

Gettin' off the subject a little, sorry.

The pain for the unfortunate spouse, however, Is no joke...
Tormenting thoughts, heartache and unanswered questions consume the individual, take control and taint the love once held between.

The same amount of love held for the other turns into an even greater amount of hate...

Hate will destroy all if you are not strong enough to control and extinguish it from your heart.

Unfortunately, some simply choose to keep it inside as a reminder to never love again.Many, make a vow to live inside an impenetrable shell and never let anyone in.
Only problem is, the fear will evolve into hate, hate into anger and anger into fear... an endless cycle taking away the victim's life with every evolution.

I refuse to give in, I will not continue to live my life in fear and for once in my life I am going to stand my ass back up! I won't allow myself to crawl on my knees and find reasons to stay down!

I will not continue to feel sorry for myself. I'm so much better than that.

My shoulders are rolled back, My chest is out and my chin, lifted.


My wife cheated, yes, but you know what?
I say....let her make her mistakes.

I won't be around anymore to help her up anymore,
She no longer has this shoulder to cry on and this voice to comfort her,
No arms to hold her at night and no kisses to brighten her day.
She can keep her pride...

Iv'e got my heart back.

Amor Animi Arbitrio Sumitur, Non Ponitur

What do I do next?!?

I have been cheated, humiliated, and lied to.
I thought our love would never die away...

"Was he a better lover than I?", "Did he make her ....?" and the one that eats me inside... "Does she really, truly regret it all??"

I don't know...


Is it possible to take revenge without losing what's left of me??

Do I dare take that path?