Comptine d'un autre ete

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The melody, dark and humble..

Take my hand and dance with me in the moonlight.
Follow me and I will not lead you astray..
The beating of our hearts, our lyrics.

I place my arms around your body.
You lean into me, rest your head upon my chest.
We embrace and begin our dance in the moonlight.

The warm summer air.
The cold concrete beneath our bare feet.
Midnight dew forming on our skin.
Alone, we dance in the moonlight..

We take our leap of faith.
I would never leave you behind.
Like the scent of a dying rose...
Intoxicate my senses and I will never withdraw from your love.


The world crumbles around,
The light from the moon fades away.

Stars fall from the sky.

Throughout the chaos and despair we will continue to dance.
Our song will never end.

Follow my lead, close your eyes.
Move slowly with me.
Hold me tight..
And the dance will never end...

ej

No regrets..

And if I took your life....

Lying on the floor.
Dust in my eyes and I can taste blood...

I can see but cannot hear.
A figure appears above me but I cannot see who.

I point to you and then cover my ears. "I see but I can't hear you speak."

The figure pulls me up and helps me up onto my feet. My legs burn intensely and I limp towards the vehicle. There is dirt everywhere and I try to walk but I can't seem to move my legs. I'm dizzy and disoriented but I try to walk away. I see Doc running towards me and I collapse once again before he reaches me.
My legs burn.

I cannot feel. I cannot feel.

Now I know.

This is no game and there is no glory in war.
Only everlasting pain..

Now I know.

ej

gone.

grit

Quiet.

The reality is hard to digest.
I'm here, now...
and I don't like it.
This way, I move about, grappling with my sanity.
Possessed by your company,
My misery is at home...

Who are you to torment me so?
Why am I cursed with your presence?
I can only hang my head and cry,
with you.
This hole you have pushed me into,
It is so deep and dark.
And yet, you never leave my side.
You want me to love you.
Need my love to survive..

Parasite.

I reach out to the light and as it fades away from sight you appear to comfort me.
Want me to cry...
You place my hand on our cold, dead heart.
It beats strongly,
In my head...

Will you ever leave me?
Only if I am strong enough to let you go.

I wish I could let you go...

You're here,
With me..

My parasite loves me so...

ej

thirty, and the world was yours

I picked you up around seven p.m.

I was so nervous because you were so beautiful.. We were just kids then.
I got out of the car, walked around to the other side and opened the door for you. You gave me a big smile and a small kiss. I knew this night would be special...
As we were driving you turned to me and asked if we needed to turn around and go back because you left your purse at home..
with a smirk on my face I answered, "No. I've got thirty bucks on me... We're good."
Silence.
"Thirty dollars?!? You only have thirty dollars?"

"Yeah, I only have thirty dollars..."

"Stop the car and take me back home!" You said..

I stopped the car and looked at you with a puzzled look on my face.
That last statement hurt my feelings pretty bad. This indeed was the last thirty dollars I had and even though it wasn't much I knew that thirty bucks was all I needed..
My eyes began to water a bit because you no longer wanted to go out with me.
I tried to hide my tears and looked for a spot to turn back towards your home...

I think you saw the pain in my face when I put my blinker on to do a U-turn.
You grabbed my hand and said, "Its ok Eric... I made an agreement and I'll stick to it. Let us finish our date."

We had a blast that night...
Dinner. A movie. Later, we had ice cream in our hands as we walked down to the beach. Your hand was in mine...

It was the best thirty dollars I've ever spent in my entire life.


Today, all I could think about was this memory of us as I dug in my pocket to once again pull out my last thirty dollars...


I had to get our divorce papers notarized and send them to you in a certified mailing envelope.


ej